I'm a bat. Wanna see me fly?

this isnt normal for me to be updating this like crazy but i really dont know what else to do i guess. it feels like everyone hates me in school, and i dont wanna be over dramatic and care about the stupid shit that pathetic, bored people do, but i really feel this way and its real. someone jammed my lock, and damn good may i add. it was last fucking hour, couldnt they have done it in the morning to make my whole day shitty? no. they have to do it for my last fucking class of the day. i had to tell my teacher and go find someone strong enough to unjam it because everyone was fucking looking at me thinking i was retarded. one of those peopl being my ex, the one that "wanted to smoke with me". i have a feeling he did it, but then again maybe he didnt. it doesnt fucking matter who did it, no one helped me. then in the office i saw one of my fave teachers (band teacher who walks with a cane) came with me to the second level to unjam my locker. we tried for a while. and then he finally had to use his cane to shove it down. well he got it, i grabbed my shit and went to class.
last year during lunch, that ex was throwing food at me during lunch. and i knew it was him because it happened several times and one of my best friends was facing him and saw him do it. well my life is dandy.
i'm one of those kids that the whole fucking grade hates cuz im different, cuz there's rumors, because no one likes giving second chances. we're forced to live in our past. we always feel like something is wrong with us, but really. it's you who's wrong. you who belittle us.
so i guess i live in your little high school world of lies for the next two years of my life. i do it for my friends who've graduated and love me very much, i do it for myself because ik i can be above this shit, i do it for my career, and i do it for the hundreds of thousands of others like me who have to live this way, and sometimes even worse.
oh yah, and one more thing, it bothers me. i'm not going to pretend like it doesnt cuz thats what u want.. fuck that, seriously. acting like we dont care only makes shit worse. they dont stop. so instead, give them something to talk about, and just be urself. if u dont care, im fucking jelious and thats the way to go! but if u do like me and its really hard not to care, even though you know this shits overrated, just be who we r. its all we really can do. and kno that ur not alone. ever. there's one bat among the birds and the beasts in every school.

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incase you don't know the Aesop fable "The bat, the birds, and the beasts" i thank the book by Alex Flinn "Breaking Point" it is my favorite book.
there are two reasons the first tattoo im getting is a bat. my grandmother's last name is Batt and i love her unbelievably. and this fable.
i'm going to qoute this from the book here so im letting u know that i dont own any of these words because ik how plagiarism goes.
"Once, all the creatures lived in harmony. Then, there was a conflict between the birds and the beasts. They formed two armies. The bat went to join with the birds. But they said 'Sorry. You're no bird.' So, he went to join the beasts, but they said, 'You can fly. You must be a bird.' Finally, the birds and the beasts made their peace. They had something in common-they all hated the bat, who was different from everyone. So the bat was forced to fly off alone before the other creatures ripped him apart."
i thought to myself for a moment, because this was in the book right before a boy named David died. he wanted to commit suicide. he said to the main character "I'm the bat. Wanna see me fly?"
if you interested, go read the book. its fucking awesome.